sebulan lagi

sebulan lagi udah tanggal 26 september. hore. akhirnya hitungannya mulai besok kurang dari 30 hari lagi. harus lebih hemat, jangan sering main, jangan makan diluar, makan dikantin aja kecuali ada yang mau traktir. pokonya berhemat.

trus dalam sbulan ini, katanya sih bakal gajian 3 kali. hohoho, agustus, thr n september. aha..

tapi brati dalam sbulan ini smua kerjaan harus beres, biar bisa menyambut 26 september dengan tenang dan lega.

mari meninggalkan kemalasan sejenak, setidaknya sampe main project ini selse. hirup napas dalam-dalam.

TIDAKKKK….

pusing

Akhirnya si ieie berangkat juga tuh ke rumahsakit. Dasar orang gila. 2 minggu yang lalu dia gejala tipes. Hari ini cek widal udah positif beneran. Selamat. Tadi pagi dia masih bilang ga mo ke dokter karena besok-minggu mau upcountry, takut disuruh opname. Tapi akhirnya dia ke RS juga, kayanya bener2 ud ga enak badan. Gue aja ga tau kapan dia pergi padahal dia duduk di sebelah gue. Dokternya aja sampe heran bisa2nya dia masih berdiri n ke RS sendiri. Abis dr dokter dia langsung disuruh opname, tapi dia balik dulu loh ke kantor, sempet nerima tamu segala. Bener-bener xena.

Udah pemu nih ngeliat excell, sekali buka ada 3 gitu, dan saling berkait-kait. Padahal tiap excell isinya juga ga cuma 1. Udah takut salah kolom, mesti pake ngayal juga. Tahun pertama kira-kira butuh field force brapa banyak, advertisingnya apa aja, butuh seminar ga, berapa kali, berapa banyak pesertanya, pembicaranya gimana. Gila… Otak gue ga mampu mengkhayal seluas sekaligus sekompleks itu. Huee.. 1 FS belom beres. Pdhl mesti ke BOD september, dan gue mesti buat kira-kira 5. Mudah2an kalo expense-expense-an cepet beres biar bisa masuk ke cashflow..

Kamis kemarin, si adik tiba-tiba operasi usus buntu, kasian deh pas abis operasi ga bisa tidur, ga bisa makan. Pas gue telepon dr kantor suaranya sedih gitu. Gue jadi ikutan sedih. Untung progressnya bagus, jadi sabtu pun dia udah boleh pulang. Cuma bekas operasinya masih sakit (yaiyadong kan abis dibelek2) trus kalo ketawa sakit gitu. Ntah kenapa gue ngomong apapun kaya salah. Tiap gue ngomong dia pengen ketawa mulu, akhirnya diomelinlah si saya oleh si ibu. Yaaa..

Trus pas kamis juga, gue kegaret kawat. Meninggalkan luka gores skitar 10 cm. Jd membayangkan, jadi superhero itu pasti sakit banget ya, da cuma kegaret kawat aja perih. Sampe disuruh suntik tetanus ma nyokap. Tapi gue belom suntik sih. Dan gue masih hidup sampe hari ini, jd berarti kawatnya ga karatan kali y.  Yah ga tau juga sih ntar malem gue bakal kenapa. Mudah2an engga, mengingat financial statement n business model gue belom beres. Trus sebulanan lagi mau karyawisata. Hehe. Pengen liburan. Huhuhu…

Trus sedang dalam ketidakjelasan juga. Ah, terombang-ambing seperti perahu di laut biru waktu ke pulau seribu. Huu mulai deh gue ber-rhyme2.

sombong

Minggu kemarin ceritanya si saya lagi nelepon si Tante, berceritalah kita segala hal, saling mengupdate berita tentang kehamilan dia (asik sebentar lagi saya punya sepupu), gosip2in orang, kerjaan si tante, sampe ke-deg2-an saya.

Saya: Tante, tapi jangan cerita-cerita dulu ya, gue lagi ga PD nih

Tante: Kenapa emang?

Saya: Iyah, gue pengen banget soalnya jadi ga PD, ah pokonya jangan deh

Tante: Alaaa, sekarang aja ngomong gitu, ntar kalo udah dapet sombong

Saya: Heh? Kapan gue sombong. Kaga perna kali

Tante: Ga pernah gimana, kelebihan elo kan cuma sombong

Huahahahahahaha…

Dasar lo tante-tante, padahal gue aja udah lupa ma kelebihan gue itu. Parah dasar… Huee.. Terlalu lama nih ga bodoh2an, nyampah2 n buang2 waktu ma kamikami… Kapan dong ibu-ibu…

Dasar wanita karir yang sibuk semuah.

Puh..

i am lost

lembam

Mudah sekali tergoda untuk terlibat dalam nilai-nilai yang tidak terlalu signifikan. Hal-hal yang menjauhkan dari kesunyataan hidup yang ada.

Menjadi manusia berarti manusiawi dan manusiawi salah satunya berarti mengikuti perasaan yang ada. Apakah perasaan menunjukkan kebenaran? Apakah itu bukan hanya mengikuti nafsu pribadi? Nafsu yang tidak membawa kemana-mana. Hanya atas nama ego dan kewajaran. Marah ketika ada yang membuat kesal, marah ketika ada yang mengganggu, marah karena tidak dipedulikan, marah karena mendapati tidak semua hal bisa berjalan sesuai keinginan. Wajarkah? Wajar. Tapi pentingkah? Belum tentu… atau mungkin bisa saya jawab, tidak saja.

Oh… Lemahnya saya.. Nyasar pula. Ayo kembali ke jalan yang benar.

The Enneagram Test

Kemaren-kemaren, atau kemarennya lagi saya nyobain tes kepribadian (lagi), Linknya darisini. Bentuknya kali ini adalah anagram gitu deh.

Ah gue ga tau cara masukin benda itu kesini.

Saya kira sih tadinya saya peacemaker (plegmatis gituh) atau yah individualis (mengingat ga terlalu pedulian ma orang). Ternyata kalau diliat dari urutannya, saya itu type 7 (The Enthusiast). Hmm hmm, mengangguk-angguk. Iya juga kali ya, kalo dipikir-pikir. Cepet banget gue berespon ma segala sesuatu dan cepet kesel kalo orang ga merespons hal secepet gue merespons orang (halah, bolak balik).

Kalo mo dibuat resep kaya doti, gue itu terdiri dari

7 bagian tipe 7 dicampur dengan 6 tipe 2, 5 tipe 4, 4 bagian tipe 5 dan 9, serta 3 bagian seimbang antara tipe 1, 3, dan 6. Tipe 8nya cukup 1 bagian ajah. Intinya apa, saya adalah seorang antusias yang suka menolong tapi tetep individualis yang ga percayaan (investigator) tapi (lagi) tetap berusaha menjaga perdamaian yang suka mereform, meraih, dan loyal (bagian ini maksa abis) dengan sifat menchallenge yang hampir tidak ada. Kok complicated gitu sih gue, antusias, penolong tapi individualis dan ga percayaan, trus individualisnya berusaha dinetralkan dengan peacemaker trus tapi dicampur lagi sama reformer and achiever dan kembali dinetralkan dengan loyalist.

Ngopi dari doti juga, sangking malesnya

Type Seven
The Enthusiast

The busy, productive type. Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming over-extended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.

Type Two
The Helper
The caring, interpersonal type. Twos are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing. They are well-meaning and driven to be close to others, but can slip into doing things for others in order to be needed. They typically have problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs. At their Best: unselfish and altruistic, they have unconditional love for others.

Type Four
The Individualist
The introspective, romantic type. Fours are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. Withholding themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. They typically have problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity. At their Best: inspired and highly creative, they are able to renew themselves and transform their experiences.

Type Five
The Investigator
The perceptive, cerebral type. Fives are alert, insightful, and curious. They are able to concentrate and focus on developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, they can also become preoccupied with their thoughts and imaginary constructs. They become detached, yet high-strung and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation. At their Best: visionary pioneers, often ahead of their time, and able to see the world in an entirely new way.

Type Nine
The Peacemaker
The easy-going, self-effacing type. Nines are accepting, trusting, and stable. They are usually creative, optimistic, and supportive, but can also be too willing to go along with others to keep the peace. They want everything to go smoothly and be without conflict, but they can also tend to be complacent, simplifying problems and minimizing anything upsetting. They typically have problems with inertia and stubbornness. At their Best: indomitable and all-embracing, they are able to bring people together and heal conflicts.

Type One
The Reformer
The principled, idealistic type. Ones are conscientious and ethical, with a strong sense of right and wrong. They are teachers, crusaders, and advocates for change: always striving to improve things, but afraid of making a mistake. Well-organized, orderly, and fastidious, they try to maintain high standards, but can slip into being critical and perfectionistic. They typically have problems with resentment and impatience. At their Best: wise, discerning, realistic, and noble. Can be morally heroic.

Type Three
The Achiever
The adaptable, success-oriented type. Threes are self-assured, attractive, and charming. Ambitious, competent, and energetic, they can also be status-conscious and highly driven for advancement. They are diplomatic and poised, but can also be overly concerned with their image and what others think of them. They typically have problems with workaholism and competitiveness. At their Best:: self-accepting, authentic, everything they seem to be—role models who inspire others.

Type Six
The Loyalist
The committed, security-oriented type. Sixes are reliable, hard-working, responsible, and trustworthy. Excellent “troubleshooters,” they foresee problems and foster cooperation, but can also become defensive, evasive, and anxious—running on stress while complaining about it. They can be cautious and indecisive, but also reactive, defiant and rebellious. They typically have problems with self-doubt and suspicion. At their Best: internally stable and self-reliant, courageously championing themselves and others.

The Challenger
The powerful, aggressive type. Eights are self-confident, strong, and assertive. Protective, resourceful, straight-talking, and decisive, but can also be ego-centric and domineering. Eights feel they must control their environment, especially people, sometimes becoming confrontational and intimidating. Eights typically have problems with their tempers and with allowing themselves to be vulnerable. At their Best: self-mastering, they use their strength to improve others’ lives, becoming heroic, magnanimous, and inspiring.

Btw, tapi di doti ga ada penjelasan reformernya tuh.

Ternyata iya juga, apa yang terjadi sama kita karena sifat kita sendiri. Berasa banget sekarang-sekarang ini saya lagi kena banget efek buruk dari antusias ma pembantu itu. Kadang suka gregetan sama diri sendiri. Emang harus ya ngelakuin a, emg mesti y ngelakuin b. Apakah orang lain yang saya beri a dan b bila pada posisi saya akan melakukan hal yang sama.

Tapi yang namanya sifat, sulit juga euy untuk ditahan. Tapi kayanya harus dinetralisir nih supaya ga self destruction mengingat sepertinya bibit-bibit apoptosis sudah mulai muncul. Sepertinya saya harus meningkatkan kadar individualis lagih.

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